It turns out that I failed to keep up with this blog. I wish I could say I was so busy that is why I stopped writing. The truth was I just lost the feeling of writing. As I am back in school now I am feeling the urge to write, or type as the case might be. I am nearly full to bursting with the need. Well at least I was yesterday when I actually had no time to get on. You all know what I'm talking about. You have the inspiration, a thought, an idea, and you are boxed in by the ordinary or regular life.
I guess I should just begin with how I am doing. Ha! Well if you asked me I would just say 'meh'. I'm not good but I'm not bad. I am not going to lie and say I am okay. If you then thought to ask what's wrong I wouldn't answer you anyways. I can't answer it. Really I can't. I have no reason to freak out. While I have a lot of school work there are others with more. While I seem to be playing catch up with courses, playing a balance act with my groups and work, or endlessly tired there are others that have it worse. While I've stopped talking to my childhood best friend because I've gotten sick of how she and all our supposed friends from childhood treat me (might be my own fault), there are people who have actually lost someone and can't get them back. While I cry at the sound of bagpipes or talking about my experience in Scotland, there are... well this might be the only thing that everyone feels (reverse culture shock). Ah, but I've started throwing out those backhanded complaints. Shame on me. I keep swearing that I wont complain but I'm not getting any better at stopping myself.
I just declined going down to the "Party on Perry" here at my college. Its one of those things that ends up giving you free things, like lemonade, pictures, and on and on. Why would I give that up? I was invited with my friends so my reason? I have none. Some traveler I am. Do you wonder what I mean by that? Well a traveler has to be open to going out of the box. If they have a set schedule they have to be acceptable to change it up. Well the thing is I changed it up already last night. I went to the store and then watched a movie with my friends. That is not what I was planning on doing. I'm trying to get ahead so I am not playing catch up. I'm trying to mellow myself out so I am not having panic attacks and for that to happen I need to get work done. If only I don't get sidetracked.
Wish me luck on that.
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