Mom is getting nervous. She doesn’t know how we are going to cover all our bills. Frankly she has a point. I don’t have enough hours at the Hotel. I mean most weeks I’m working four days in a row. That is good right? It is part time though and probably the pay is minimum. I really have to get a second job to pay for this house. Yay responsibilities! She was proposed to by her good friend to offer to rent the entire house at $800 a month. However, that would mean I would have to move again. I would also have to force my good friend out as well since I have her living her now as well. I really do have plans for this place. Am I really being that selfish? Can I imagine that I can make it through the years? Should I suck up my pride and apply at taco bell? I would be returning to the one position that I swore that I would never return once I had my college degree. I feel like it is out of the question to move again so soon especially after getting my job. I will have to get that second job....
My fears are taking over. I think I’m getting stressed and panicky. That is not a good combo. I’m trying to smile and lose myself in my different worlds. Now while I freak you out with that comment, I only mean my movies, tv shows, and stories. I think I keep putting everything off but sooner or later it is going to come down that I am going to have to face everything. I think I am wishing for someone to take care of me, preferably someone with lots and lots of money. Now I shall add gold digger to my list of sins. Why not? At least I would be a gold digger of principals and faithfulness.
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| A sample from internet |
I wish I had more cheerful things to talk about. I feel like I’m secluding myself. I’m also pulling my close friend with me. She loves social things so I don’t think I can completely destroy her.
I did draw again after such a long hiatus. I had drawn a picture of my friend. Her little sister liked what I did, so for the her birthday I did a small drawing of her. I think it turned out close to looking like her though my friend hadn’t recognized her. That kind of sucked, but meh. It was my "poor man’s" gift. I did that and I also taught her an art project that I learned last year. It involves shaving cream, food coloring, and paper. It is really neat and probably a great project for children to learn. Just look for the youtube instructions on line by using the keywords "art project, shaving cream, food coloring, and paper."
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| A sample of a finished project from internet |
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